Quarantine Dispatch #4: I never liked this city

How are you feeling? What are you thinking? What’s happening? Bored, stressed, inspired, uninspired, calm, restless, frustrated, anxious? There’s no “right” way to cope with a pandemic. Reading through these submissions, despite the practical differences of each situation, we felt a reassuring sense of familiarity and gratitude. Maybe you can too. 

Katerina Kondrat, Fashion design development student, London College of Fashion

 

I see faces of people that were never present and now are forever gone.

There is a haunting trembling that is happening on the inner side of mine ever since I left.
I never loved or even liked this city
It always seemed too big and scary.

But more frightened I am now, thinking of how vast is the distance that grew between us all, How fast it’s been composed

So sudden
For an uncertain while.

Some decisions furiously take over our lives.

There is a haunting trembling that is happening on the inner side of mine It shivers,
Echoes,
It resonates of places that turned their walls into thousand webs,

Fragile,
they never notified how crucial it is to memorize, so easily you can remember.

I see the blend of made up people’s faces, whose silent monologue vibrates.