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Isabella Brunner: Vogue’s Visuals Editor on putting mental health above your career

can it be beneficial for a fashion professional to prioritise their personal wellbeing or will it always feel like a sacrifice?

 

Emotions. Well-being. Fashion career. These three don’t seem to be going well together in this industry. We all know how it goes: one aspires to get into fashion and so they try, try even harder, try until they find their place – any place. Is it exactly what they wanted? Does this role or lifestyle even fit them? No time to ask questions, it’s too late now, just keep going. Or maybe don’t. That is what Isabella Brunner seemed to do. Ask all the questions, and force herself to answer.

Born and raised in London, a career in fashion is all Brunner ever wanted. Starting her journey from being a model agency receptionist to working in the fashion department of magazine titles, she got to know the industry from within, which stimulated a parallel journey of self-reflection. Talking with Issey (as friends call her) about issues that are rarely discussed in career-focused chats such as the impact of unemployment and casual work mistreatment, along with the mountainous task of juggling mental illness with work in the name of social acceptance reminds us of the importance of transparent conversations.

What is the reality of a high-pressure job as the associate visuals editor at British Vogue and what did it take to get there? What does a picture editor even do and what does someone need to do to become one? Can it be beneficial for a fashion professional to prioritise their personal well-being? Or will it always feel like a sacrifice? Isabella Brunner tried to answer all these questions and shared some heart-to-heart advice on finding the bravery to value how we feel more than what we do.

Could you share a bit about your background with us?

I’m from London and studied painting at university. I started working as a receptionist at Models 1, and then went on to assist Danielle Emerson at Wonderland magazine, turning into a fashion editor until I left to go to Asos.likes where I did production, writing and social media (which I didn’t love). It was a bit of a mess at Asos, to be honest, I felt very lost there and had a mental breakdown in 2016 [laughs].

I tried to start a casting agency with a friend which didn’t go very well and ended quite abruptly. We casted for magazines, Asos, ES magazine, and Shelly Durkan but I realised that I needed a break from fashion. It had become horrible to me. I was fed up with being spoken to like shit, and I took some time to reassess what I wanted. I was adamant it wasn’t going to be fashion. I didn’t feel strong enough. There’s a horrible culture in this industry; overworking, acting like fashion is saving lives, not looking after yourself, and therefore not looking after the people working for you. I just fell completely out of love with all of it, which was devastating as it was really all I knew. I was unemployed until I started freelancing at The Observer on the picture desk, whilst still emailing people all the time asking for work. Then, after that, I took a position as a deputy picture editor at Soho house. I was made redundant during the pandemic and was freelancing, researching, and editing for Dazed, Jazz Grant, Gucci, Sharna Osborne, Conde Nast Studio, The Stack, Hugo Boss, Selfridges, Danielle Emerson/Heaven, Stella McCartney, and then Vogue.

“There’s a horrible culture in this industry; overworking, acting like fashion is saving lives, not looking after yourself, and therefore not looking after the people working for you. I just fell completely out of love with all of it, which was devastating as it was really all I knew. ” – Isabella Brunner

How did you get into fashion? What drew you into the field?

My parents were and are very creative. My dad is into photography and my mum is into fashion. Books and magazines and clothes and music and photographs surrounded us. My father worked in media photography and there were always stories and pictures. I was drawn into all of it. Dragged into it even. I was painting and taking pictures all the time.

I first fell in love with the idea of working in fashion when I watched John Galliano’s SS’05 show, probably on Fashion TV. I did a presentation on it at school in an English lesson and nobody cared. The music and the clothes were just magical. Even watching it now, I feel it’s so special. Galliano’s gazette dresses, tiny bikinis, and feather boas were just quintessential Galliano that made me sit up and really feel that this was what I wanted to be doing. I knew there were so many different parts to the industry and it was just figuring out which one was for me.

I was super lucky that a family friend Natasha Wray [now head of womenswear at MatchesFashion] was an assistant at ELLE magazine around the time I was finishing school, and she told me to apply for an internship on the Fashion team. I obviously thought I was going to be just like LC from the Hills. I had no money, I signed on for a Job Seekers allowance so I had enough cash to get the bus to the ELLE office. I used my dad’s computer to email, anyone and everyone, asking for jobs, asking to meet. I assisted Natasha Wray who was styling here and there, thinking maybe I could style. I went through a really bad break-up halfway through university, and could barely function, so I quit my job and stopped going to university for a period of time. Once I finished university I was just drifting and my friend Charlotte Roberts who was styling and casting told me they needed a receptionist at Models 1.

“This industry exploits the desire people have to work in fashion. ” – Isabella Brunner

What were your very first aspirations in terms of a “dream job”?

To be THE editor of Vogue. I had no idea what that meant when I was a child, or what it entailed. It was that or a pop star [laughs]. I wanted to run a magazine, but I also wanted to be a painter. I studied Fine Art Painting at university and went back and forth between that and working in fashion for a while.

“There comes a point where you’ve been walked over one too many times and you just sit up and realise your worth. Or you try to.” – Isabella Brunner

Was there a point when you realised that fashion might be a hard industry to navigate? 

When I was at a magazine in London I was getting paid very little and was working ridiculous hours. This industry exploits the desire people have to work in fashion. I was very lucky because my parents live in London and I could move back home. But very few people are privileged enough to come from a type of background where they have financial stability or even have the emotional support of a family that can allow them to work the way the fashion industry expects them to when they are trying to break into it.

I would cry almost every day when I got home, it was painful to work there, and be treated like I was. There comes a point where you’ve been walked over one too many times and you just sit up and realise your worth. Or you try to. I tried to believe that I was worth more than how I was being treated. I realised quite early on that there are so many systemic ‘flaws’ in this industry, but not all of them would affect me directly. In my early twenties, I didn’t really know what to do about them, I just wanted to work and wanted to keep my head down. But when you hear another assistant being spoken to with micrο-aggressions you feel torn between doing the right thing and staying silent, whilst everyone else laughs along.

“There is so much pressure on us as soon as we leave school to know what we want to do, but I didn’t figure it out until I was 29.” – Isabella Brunner

How did you start developing a special interest in visual research and when did you think that you could turn it into a career?

I had some time off work in 2018. I had just finished working in casting, and was just really slowly trying to find work again, figuring out what my next ‘move’ was going to be. I had become quite unwell mentally in the last couple of years and felt so much personal and societal pressure to keep up with everyone.

I kind of one day just thought oh why don’t I try this, it makes so much sense! I’m confident in my eye for images, I love photography and art and image-making and my dad was a picture editor and a photographer’s agent before he stopped working, so I’ve always been around it. It was in front of me and I just never noticed it. There is so much pressure on us as soon as we leave school to know what we want to do, but I didn’t figure it out until I was 29. I was a late bloomer.

What is that you like about fashion images and the act of researching visuals at large?

I love learning! I can’t express that enough. It’s really important to be excited to learn when researching. Seeing new things, discovering new images and image makers, and learning about new processes. I immerse myself in the subject at hand, whatever it might be, I can fully understand it.

“The most important thing for a pictures editor is knowing your photographers and photographs.” – Isabella Brunner

For anyone who is not aware of the term, what does a picture editor do?

Essentially, a picture editor researches and reviews images, chooses photographs, and commissions photographers for publications. But it’s also so much more than that in my opinion! A picture editor is a visual editor. They figure out what photos will be used for which piece, how they’ll work, and why they’ll work. Negotiating fees, rights, and permissions for photographs is also a bit part of it.

What kind of skills does one need to be in such a position? 

The most important thing for a pictures editor is knowing your photographers and photographs. Having a few contacts within the industry helps too. I was going to say you need to have an ‘eye’ for photography but what does that even mean? Everything is so subjective, it’s not as simple as that. Visual Research has played a huge role in all of my jobs. It’s really important to understand what you’re looking at, where the idea for the stories you’re working on have come from; to know your references.

“I have to take breaks from social media sometimes when I find myself feeling jealous and bitter toward other people, because I know I can spiral into thinking of myself as a failure.” – Isabella Brunner

Does work change when moving to a large publication such as Vogue? Is there a certain pressure that comes with a title like this?

So much pressure! It’s very fast-paced, especially in digital.

It’s not just about what I want and what I think looks best. It’s a team of people that have to approve the images so they relate to the pieces that are being written, which at first is hard to come to terms with especially when I’ve been used to working on my own.

“I needed to make sure my mental health was in front of my need to work, choosing between looking after myself and chasing a career to keep up with my peers, and what was expected of me was a really hard decision to make.” – Isabella Brunner

You are vocal about mental health online. Do you think it is important to speak out about emotional struggles at a time when online presence is mainly “aspirational” and has it helped you in any way sharing your feelings online?

I think it is important to speak out about mental health. Really important. It makes me feel less alone when I get messages saying “I feel this too” and I hope it makes other people know they aren’t alone in whatever they’re feeling. Social media only shows one way. One path. People usually only post things that affirm life as amazing and wonderful, which deflates a lot of us. It is really important to have boundaries with these platforms. I have to take breaks from social media sometimes when I find myself feeling jealous and bitter toward other people, because I know I can spiral into thinking of myself as a failure. A few other people I know do it too. It’s helpful!

"I just stared at a wall for two months. I needed to make sure my mental health was in front of my need to work."

“I felt so strongly that I had to look after myself and be open about it even if it meant I was going to be judged by peers who were putting their careers first. I couldn’t do that. ” – Isabella Brunner

For many people balancing mental health and a job is not a simple task; wanting to be professional and creative sometimes comes in contradiction with one’s mind and body capacity. Is it ever hard for you to navigate?

Oh, it’s so hard! Especially now that I have a full-time job. I was signed off work when I was at ASOS and had a breakdown. I couldn’t navigate anything I was feeling. I was diagnosed with depression, agoraphobia and Borderline Personality Disorder, and went on medication (which I’m still on). I just stared at a wall for two months. And drank a lot of tea. I needed to make sure my mental health was in front of my need to work. Choosing between looking after myself and chasing a career to keep up with my peers, and what was expected of me was a really hard decision to make. I had burnt out in a way. It was hard to explain to my parents what I was going to do. My dad worked until he was too sick to work anymore, and in a similar way had a breakdown and was diagnosed with x, y, and z. I’ve watched my parents struggle with it. I didn’t want to mirror that. I felt so strongly that I had to look after myself and be open about it even if it meant I was going to be judged by peers who were putting their careers first. I couldn’t do that.

Do you think there is space for young professionals in fashion to adapt their job to their lives instead of vice versa?

I hope so. I watch people work in such a toxic way, doing the opposite, including myself sometimes. That way of working is glamourised. It’s not healthy. Also, we aren’t saving lives?! Let’s all calm down and take a break, eat properly, get some sleep and look after ourselves. I really don’t believe it’s hard to do, you just have to want to do it, which a lot of people say they do but don’t actually want to.

Painting by Isabella Brunner

“Painting helps me so much when I’m in a bad place mentally. I can just zone out, it’s such a good emotional release. Even if it’s just for an hour it can put me in a calmer place.” – Isabella Brunner

You are also painting; Were you always painting or did you start in the last few years? What part does painting play in your life and creativity? 

I’ve always painted. I studied it at university but didn’t paint for years which made me sad every time I thought of it, yet I still did nothing about it. When I was signed off work I started again, to pass the time because I was alone a lot during the day which wasn’t ideal. I tried to keep it up to help my brain switch off. Painting helps me so much when I’m in a bad place mentally. I can just zone out, it’s such a good emotional release. Even if it’s just for an hour it can put me in a calmer place.

I enjoy researching different styles and mediums to see if I can try them or incorporate them into my work. There’s so much more to learn always and when I paint I feel more inspired in general. I’m always looking for things to paint. I look at everything and think if that can be a painting. Even if nothing ever comes from that thought it’s always in my head.

 

Follow @isabella_brunner_ for more of Isabella Brunner’s paintings (open for commissions).